The only thing worse than not having what we need is not using what we have. I hope all who come across this message also realizes that oftentimes what we need comes our way only when we use and respect what we have already. HAVE A BLESSED WEEKEND!

BOUNCE HOUSE and POST CCSVI

This morning, while watching The Price Is Right, I saw something that I plan to do as soon as I possibly can after my LIBERATION. Something most would think of as child's play, brought tears to my eyes. You see, seventeen ears ago, almost one year and one month to the day after giving birth to my youngest son, I was diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis. That was supposed to be such a joyous time for me and my family, but was tarnished by this and fighting another of the greatest battles of my life. I must say though had it not been for the birth and joy of my beautiful baby boy, I really don't think I'd be here to tell my story. Multiple Sclerosis and going virtually hand to hand combat with one one the largest employers in the US was enough to drive any sane person insane. Had it not been for my Mother being with me when my little angel wiggled away from me, even though she fell catching him, my story would be quite different. She saved my baby from being hit by a car. Her knees were skinned up a bit but she was O.K. I LOVE MY MOTHER for so many reasons, this being just one of them.

I mention most of these additional notations to state life just hasn't been too joyful for a long time. The thing about me is I find and make my JOY and that comes from a lifetime of internal work, not necessarily by choice, but born as a survival mechanism. After so many years of mental and physical suffering, I am planning on having some good old fashioned FUN - BIG KID STYLE! It doesn't matter that by that date in December I will be 53 years old.....and SO WHAT! One of the things I am going to do is find a bounce house and video tape or live stream myself jumping up and down for as long as I can. Having my Mother and family seeing me do this will bring them so much joy. I have not been able to run or jump up and down for nearly twenty five years. My sons missed out on so much fun I wanted to share with them but couldn't with a severe back injury and then compounded by Multiple Sclerosis.

Just thinking of doing this and other things is the beginning my healing process. For me, it is not just to have any procedure done or taking medicine that brings me healing, it is the mind body experience that brings it all together. Yes CCSVI and LIBERATION will bring me close to my expectations, but it's the total package of restoration that I will have to give me the chance to live the fulfilled life I deserve. Oh, and be damned to those who shout placebo effect, it's not been through clinical trials and any negativty that is being propogated by the profiteers in the keep them sick game. Angioplasty should not be denied to those diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis because it seems most been misdiagnosed and we certainly deserve the chance to live better when there is another way than drugs that are being proven not to work.

I AM GRATEFUL THAT I HAVE A STRONG RESOUNDING, INFALLIBLE FAITH. I LOVE THE LORD, and THE LORD LOVES ME, despite all the turmoil. I HAVE A GRATEFUL HEART! THAT IS GOING TO BE SO MUCH FUN.......in a BOUNCE HOUSE ALL BY MYSELF! I will literally be ROTFLMBO!

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